In the eight and a half years since we first learned the truth about the name about the Father YAHUAH and His Son YAHUSHA, I have only twice felt a level of sadness regarding the people who say they follow truth.
The first was after a miscarriage, someone said that we Should just Be Happy with the three children we had at the time and Not Worry about the Miscarriage. I have already written about that time in a previous post please see here “Miscarriage Part 2“.
My personality will usually think the best of others as much or as long as possible. When people take a long time to respond to an email, I brush it off as if they are just busy – yet I usually will stop and respond in a timely manner when emails are sent to me. This is especially true when people send me emails about problems they are having, I usually will stop what I am doing (sometimes staying up late) to respond via email or call and when I say I will pray for people, I do. If I do not understand an issue I will research it before responding, so that I can try to better understand what might be going on. When we watch the weather and I see that bad weather might be going towards a fellow believers area, I will email or call to check on them.
I care for people. But now I see, people, those who say they believe in YAHUAH do not care for me.
Over the last few months, we have openly posted videos about a very personal problem. One that I would have personally preferred to keep private. But Knowledge is Power and other women could be experiencing the same problem so we opened up and shared our journey to correcting the wrong that was done.
One person sent an email, saying they understood the problem and they went through something similar, after the first update we did.
One other person, who is very busy, after watching update #2, sent an email saying that their family would be praying for us.
For those two people, I am thankful.
However, as time grew closer, I thought that others would have said something, but nothing. There were no phone calls (from those who have the phone number) to say anything. Once we returned home on the fourth day of the week, there was not one message, not one single email.
The reality hit me like a ton of bricks.
I could have died and no one would have cared from my family!!!! No one even cared enough to send a simple email. Nothing at all.
For several days now, I have walked around feeling depressed because I thought, we as a family, our family mattered to others. I thought despite very few responses early on that people would want to know how things went.
I have asked YAHUAH what have we done or if something is wrong with us. But when I think about the last 8 years of our life, this is the same problem and is the same no matter what the issue is (weather, surgery, new baby, homeschooling). When we had tornadoes a few months ago, did anyone bother to check on us? Nope. As a matter of fact, no one ever has.
I have said all along that people care more about keeping every command (according to their view-point) and using the correct Hebrew words (which keeps changing every time we turn around) then they do for others. This So-Called Perception that there is a Faith Based Family in YAHUAH/YAHUSHA in Yisra’el/Yashra’al, has become nothing more than just a bunch of noise! Reality Check, Insanity is Doing the Same Thing Expecting a Different Result!
My normal reaction, is to close off, and stop posting. Because obviously, No One cares what I have to say anyway, right? No I am not going to do that. Instead I am going to expect nothing at all. I will still care but it will be much different.
So NOW I See, What is Missing.
By the way, I am doing fine. With the help and under the care of my wonderful Husband I have been able to rest and recover. Our children have been so helpful. I am still taking it very easy but soon will be back to up to my normal self.